Getting out of my own way

In the Mermaids and Dolphins Cards by Doreen Virtue,  one card says Accept Heaven's Help. They say that every time we call to Heavens, our prayers are always being answered. However, in many cases they come in various unexpected forms and very different from the way we perceive those answers.

Lately, I have been going through difficult challenges and it seems that everyone else is. In many nights, my friends and I would wind up talking about the difficulties and reminding each other that things are going to be all right. One thing that I notice during those discussions is the feeling that help is there but always being resisted. For countless chats, I have witnessed how people dismiss help for pre-judgments. It's sad but as my Teacher said, "No one can walk the path for you."

This means that however good the pieces of advice are given by the people around, everything boils down to me. And my friends cannot give that I-told-you-so look even though they are almost licensed to do so when the moment comes. Because it is my choice.

There are times when I wish I could just get out of my own way to accept Heaven's help. I have been refusing opportunities because of my perceived injuries, making an infinite list of excuses. But most of the time, I'm not even aware that I'm in my own way.

Being in my own way means allowing excuses, blames, guilt, and, most importantly, my ego to block my progress. Sure, I always say I'm ok because I always feel the need to be right. How about not bothering to be right all the time? How about accepting that I've had misgivings and I'm willing to face it. Maybe that will be the time I'd be able to get out of my own way too.

Destiny

Believing in your dreams is probably the best antidote to depression. These days, we are so addicted to drama as we are reinforced with soaps that make us use our imagination to visualize about negative things. And it is in these encounters that we are hindered from our true destiny. I have always believed in destiny. No, not the thing that a lot if us believe it to be so. In many cases, people believe that there is no way to direct our future and so we resign to the the idea that we are only being tossed around by fate. The truth is this: each of us is destined for greatness. The question is how ready are we to live up to it? I have personally observed the difference between people who believe in their dreams and the people who don't. The ones who do maintain a cheerful disposition in life. Those who don't spend too much time on TV believing that their lives are rightly portrayed in the boob tube - and end up feeling more depressed than they're supposed to be. This relates to the last time I uploaded something in this blog. A well-meaning person told me that I ought to be writing something more interesting and that I should cut these heart blogs - and I heeded. This explains my hiatus. It was only last week when a friend who just came home asked me what happened to my blog. She told me that my works helped her through difficult times and that i should continue doing it because who knows who else I have helped. I learned that you cannot keep on believing to what others tell you what to do or what not to. Our dreams, ideas, and inspiration are not being planted inside our minds for no reason. There must be something to it and the bravest thing we can do is listen to and act upon it. So, let's go get busy with our dreams and turn off that TV.