Getting out of my own way

In the Mermaids and Dolphins Cards by Doreen Virtue,  one card says Accept Heaven's Help. They say that every time we call to Heavens, our prayers are always being answered. However, in many cases they come in various unexpected forms and very different from the way we perceive those answers.

Lately, I have been going through difficult challenges and it seems that everyone else is. In many nights, my friends and I would wind up talking about the difficulties and reminding each other that things are going to be all right. One thing that I notice during those discussions is the feeling that help is there but always being resisted. For countless chats, I have witnessed how people dismiss help for pre-judgments. It's sad but as my Teacher said, "No one can walk the path for you."

This means that however good the pieces of advice are given by the people around, everything boils down to me. And my friends cannot give that I-told-you-so look even though they are almost licensed to do so when the moment comes. Because it is my choice.

There are times when I wish I could just get out of my own way to accept Heaven's help. I have been refusing opportunities because of my perceived injuries, making an infinite list of excuses. But most of the time, I'm not even aware that I'm in my own way.

Being in my own way means allowing excuses, blames, guilt, and, most importantly, my ego to block my progress. Sure, I always say I'm ok because I always feel the need to be right. How about not bothering to be right all the time? How about accepting that I've had misgivings and I'm willing to face it. Maybe that will be the time I'd be able to get out of my own way too.